Sunny Sunday

So I’ve been thinking many thoughts, particularly in the past week. Deep thoughts, even. And what I’ve learned, though I hope I keep learning beyond this simple lesson, is that there are always answers. While it’s not exactly the desire of my heart, I have gotten answers that I needed to internalize on my path to achieving/receiving the desire of my heart. Each trial and test is a stepping stone in that path, and it shapes who I am now into who I can be- someone that I may not see in myself, but that the Lord sees in me.

Alma 7:23 And now I would that ye should be ^ahumble, and be ^bsubmissive and gentle; easy to be entreated; full of patience and long-suffering; being temperate in all things; being diligent in keeping the commandments of God at all times; asking for whatsoever things ye stand in need, both spiritual and temporal; always returning thanks unto God for whatsoever things ye do receive.
I came across this scripture during my reading this week, and knew that it was speaking to me, specifically, of things I needed to do. Anger and frustration, though we may feel impelled to express those emotions sometimes, are not the keys to anything at all, except more anger, frustration, and alienation from the Spirit. This was my first key in facing my current trial. Let the anger go and embody these qualities instead.

D&C 58:2 For verily I say unto you, blessed is he that ^akeepeth my commandments, whether in life or in ^bdeath; and he that is ^cfaithful in ^dtribulation, the ^ereward of the same is greater in the kingdom of heaven.

A dear friend of mine offered this scripture for advice, when I sought his insight. It truly touched my heart, for I recognized the truth was resounding in my heart. Remembering these things is difficult, and that is often what lets small challenges become big trials. To remember something….. it means we already know it and simply need to bring it to the front of our thoughts. We can’t know, really, what lies ahead of us. But it’s going to be good. There will still be problems, and hard times will always be close at hand, but it will be something better than we could ever have imagined. I have imagined a lot, so sometimes it’s hard to think that there’s anything better than what I’ve dreamt up for myself, but there is.

Well, I suppose that is enough for today. It’s time for break the fast, so I’m going to go mingle with people (I hope). Ace is sick and has been so kind as to take residence in all the public areas of our apartment– I swear she spends most of her day at the desk in the kitchen– so now that I’m beginning to feel a cold coming on, I’m rather wary. Oh well, she’ll cough where she wants, I suppose, and I’ll suffer the consequences. Let’s hope what I had this summer was swine flu and that I don’t get it again from her. Or her sick friend she brought over the other day…. yeah. If I do get it, I will at least be courteous and keep to my room, for the general sake of whoever comes to our apartment, so they have a chance of NOT getting it.