Creative Wanderings

Seriously, I’ve been hankering lately. It’s probably just the usual “I wish I were dating someone” thing…. but it is a hankering, nonetheless. And Clog America… I’m wishing I were dancing with them so I could go to Turkey this summer. I turned down TURKEY!!! As in, Istanbul, the Blue Mosque, the Hagia Sophia, the bazaars, and reuniting with our awesome Turkish friends. I’m even hankering for BYU Folk Dance. I finished with that over two years ago! I guess I’m just feeling unsettled… but in a way that I feel like will motivate me to do things. For example, maybe I’ll train for a half marathon. Yeah, me, the no-good, very bad runner…. but it could be fun. And maybe it will help curb my wanton hankering for things I can’t have or don’t have.

How soon hath Time, the subtle thief of youth, stolen on his wing my three-and-twentieth year! John Milton I know it’s a little early to broach the subject, but I will soon be turning ages again, adding yet another year and opening a new 12-month chapter of experiences. Besides, how often do you get a quote that so perfectly matches your current status?

Wow, I’ve been blogging for over a year and have now hit my 100th post marker! Pretty exciting, if I do say so myself. (Well, maybe it was really rather anticlimactic, but I figure it was worth celebrating anyways.) It’s always interesting to go back and read what I wrote in past months and year(s). Seeing where I have been helps me remember where I am going. I wonder, sometimes, if I wasn’t more on target in the past than I am each day… but I think that’s just the benefit of 20-20 retro-vision. So, here’s to transcribing the present to have a referent in the future that captures the past. Here’s today’s gem for the past/future. I came across this in John Bytheway’s “What I Wish I’d Known When I Was Single.” It was a great read, with some excellent quotes, advice, etc. I found this one by Edison Read more…

This song really fits where I’m at now. I went through a really big rut/valley/trench for about two weeks, but I have thankfully made it through that and back on balance. I’m thankful for how topsy-turvy I became then, because I now feel like I have a stronger faith in the future. One thing I’ve realized, looking at friends who are now engaged, is that so much can change in such a short amount of time. I still think it will take something of a miracle for me to meet that guy, but I know that it will happen. When it should happen. And it is worth waiting for 🙂

So I’ve been thinking many thoughts, particularly in the past week. Deep thoughts, even. And what I’ve learned, though I hope I keep learning beyond this simple lesson, is that there are always answers. While it’s not exactly the desire of my heart, I have gotten answers that I needed to internalize on my path to achieving/receiving the desire of my heart. Each trial and test is a stepping stone in that path, and it shapes who I am now into who I can be- someone that I may not see in myself, but that the Lord sees in me. Alma 7:23 And now I would that ye should be ahumble, and be bsubmissive and gentle; easy to be entreated; full of patience and long-suffering; being temperate in all things; being diligent in keeping the commandments of God at all times; asking for whatsoever things ye stand in need, both Read more…

It’s interesting how time overlaps and runs into itself. How slow it moves at times, while running faster and faster every day. I remember last Halloween so vividly. I had purple hair sticking straight up into the sky. I went bowling with the ward and saw Jean Valjean, who I most certainly had a crush on. A group of us, including Gandalf (Landon Christensen) waited in line to see the engineering haunted house, but for some reason we left before going inside. Kristen was Alice in Wonderland, Cami was Raggedy Ann, and they both helped me deconstruct my hair before we went to watch “I Am Legend.” It is so amazing how much changes in a year. I live in a different apartment, different ward …. which I need to make more of an effort to connect with. I had a very lame costume, although I did come out looking Read more…

So when getting my pictures from Nebraska off my camera, I realized I had some other ones from the beginning of the semester that I hadn’t taken off yet. Thus, I haven’t told the stories of them either! So, in more or less chronological order, here we go. World of Dance, September 16-19 Fulfilling yet another dance dream, I got to perform in World of Dance, with the top BYU dance groups, in the de Jong Concert Hall. Colleen West choreographed a tap dance to a mix of Michael Buble songs for the concert. I actually didn’t even have to audition… since she knows my dancing. That was a happy moment for me. Anyways, we started rehearsing a week before school started and put together the dance in a week! Thank goodness we had two and a half weeks after that to polish, stage, and do dress rehearsals. The performances Read more…

Welcome to Lincoln, Nebraska!! Be prepared, there’s lots of pictures. So this weekend I took a quick trip out to see Chad and Michelle in Lincoln. It was so much fun! Not only is it always nice to get a break from the bubble that is Provo, but we had so much fun too! Saturday was our day out and about Lincoln. Since it was game day, we opted to stay away from downtown. We went to buy some last things for Baby Boy Burgin (Freddy? Barathamew?). He’s not even here yet and I just know he’s going to be the cutest thing ever! His room is so cute, with his striped bumpers and swing all set up. And Michelle got the cutest little carrier cover so he doesn’t freeze in the Nebraska wind. He’ll be like a little Sherpa in his sheepskin wrap! Michelle and I had a fun Read more…

Today is a better day. It was a difficult week, but today I felt a very big measure of peace. I know that things always work out in the end. It’s getting through the meantime that is hard. But on the same count, the meantime is the most important part of the process! It’s what you do there that dictates where you stand in the “end.” I know there are still things I need to do in my “meantime,” but I’m on a good track. That feels good.